OWN UP TO WHAT YOU DO!!!

An issuse a lot of people have is owning up to what they do. It's human nature to blame our mistakes and shor comings on other people. But there comes a time that if we don't own up to things we lose more than we gain. Sometimes when we hurt the people we love we try to down play the things we have done thinking we're making things better, but we're not. We need to own up to the things we do so we can truly be forgiven. If you down play your mistakes the people you hurt will think you don't care about what you did and they will never completely forgive you. that's why I have decided to do just that. I am going to own up to some of the things I've done that have hurt the man I love in hopes he can forgive me and also to motivate anyone who reads my blog to do the same. As I have written in the past I have a very specail person in my life and we have been together for 3 years. In the course of these 3 years we have been thru a lot and I have much of the blame for that. I have done some things I am not proud of, but my baby has always forgiven me. One of the biggest mistakes I did was breaking up with him when we were going thru a rough patch in our relationship. He was truy trying to attempt to fix things between us and I started dating someone else. there were other extraneous details that caused me to make this decision but I was still wrong for doing this. I hurt him greatly and I lost his trust. In spite of that he forgave me and we got back together. Besides that incident we have had other fights where I have said and done some terrible things. This last fight we had was one of the worst ever. I told him I regretted the 3 years we were together and many other awful things. I said this out of fear and anger because I'm so afraid of losing him. It's stupid how sometimes we do and say the dumbest things out of fear of losing the people we love. We don't realize that that fear can potential make us lose the people/things we love. Because of my actions the love of my life, my best friend isn't talking to me. I hope he read this and sees how sorry I am for what I have done. I love him so much and I am willing to own up to what I did. I was wrong and I don't desrve another chance, but I would like one. He isn't perfect either but I love him and I know he would never hurt me. SLC, I hope you can forgive me. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and I know I need to be a better woman for you. pleas give me another chance!!! For everyone else reading this, learn from my mistakes!