IBOGAINE: THE CURE TO DRUG ADDICTION

In class we have been discussing psychoactive that grows in some plants called Ibogaine. The substance that is extracted from iboga plants helps drug addicts lose all need for any drug in a matter of days or even hours. This plant originated in Africa and was simply used for rituals. Ibogaine was discovered by accident in the 1960's wgen given to a heroin addict and his need for the drug withered away in a few hours. Howard Lotsof, an ex drug addict wants to patent this substance in the United States. Our government does not want to approve it due to its hallucinogenic properties. What this means is the this substance makes you see things that are not really. That side effect only lasts a few hours following a long resting period. Canada and Mexico are some of the known countries that use ibogaine. It has proven to be very effective in these countries. If anyone wants to know more about ibogaine Howard Lotsof will be coming to the College of Staten Island on December 3rd.

OWN UP TO WHAT YOU DO!!!

An issuse a lot of people have is owning up to what they do. It's human nature to blame our mistakes and shor comings on other people. But there comes a time that if we don't own up to things we lose more than we gain. Sometimes when we hurt the people we love we try to down play the things we have done thinking we're making things better, but we're not. We need to own up to the things we do so we can truly be forgiven. If you down play your mistakes the people you hurt will think you don't care about what you did and they will never completely forgive you. that's why I have decided to do just that. I am going to own up to some of the things I've done that have hurt the man I love in hopes he can forgive me and also to motivate anyone who reads my blog to do the same. As I have written in the past I have a very specail person in my life and we have been together for 3 years. In the course of these 3 years we have been thru a lot and I have much of the blame for that. I have done some things I am not proud of, but my baby has always forgiven me. One of the biggest mistakes I did was breaking up with him when we were going thru a rough patch in our relationship. He was truy trying to attempt to fix things between us and I started dating someone else. there were other extraneous details that caused me to make this decision but I was still wrong for doing this. I hurt him greatly and I lost his trust. In spite of that he forgave me and we got back together. Besides that incident we have had other fights where I have said and done some terrible things. This last fight we had was one of the worst ever. I told him I regretted the 3 years we were together and many other awful things. I said this out of fear and anger because I'm so afraid of losing him. It's stupid how sometimes we do and say the dumbest things out of fear of losing the people we love. We don't realize that that fear can potential make us lose the people/things we love. Because of my actions the love of my life, my best friend isn't talking to me. I hope he read this and sees how sorry I am for what I have done. I love him so much and I am willing to own up to what I did. I was wrong and I don't desrve another chance, but I would like one. He isn't perfect either but I love him and I know he would never hurt me. SLC, I hope you can forgive me. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and I know I need to be a better woman for you. pleas give me another chance!!! For everyone else reading this, learn from my mistakes!

PASSION, LOVE AND GOOD MEN

The rapper Ice-T once said in one of his raps "Passion makes the world go round. Love just makes it a safe place." I complelely agree with this statement. That's the way my significant other makes me feel. His love makes me feel so protected and peaceful. The passion we have between each other makes life exciting. Even though our relationship is a little crazy I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world! He is sweet, sexy, smart, generous, funny and caring. Sometimes I lose sight of all of this because me and him have been together for 3 years. When couples take each other for granted, fights and disagreements tend to occur. This has happened at times in my relationship. I want to use this opportunity to apologize to my baby for being ungrateful and hurtful at times. I love and appreciate him very much. Sometimes I'm so afraid of losing him I get crazy and do stupid shit. I truly wish I could take back some of the things I've said and done in anger. Ladies, don't make the same mistake as me! If you have a good man like mine be good to him and don't be petty! Don't ruin a good relationship out of fear. Everyone desrves to be loved.

WHY DO I CARE ABOUT BIRTH ORDER!? I'M AN ONLY CHILD!!!

A FEW WEEKS AGO WE READ AN EXCERPT FROM A BOOK ABOUT BIRTH ORDER IN ENGLISH CLASS. MY TEACHER LOVES TO TALK ABOUT THAT. BUT AS AN ONLY CHILD I WONDERED, "WHAT THE HELL DOES THIS GOT TO DO WITH ME?" I DON'T FIT INTO ANY OF THIS. I AM MY MOTHER'S FIRST AND ONLY CHILD. I'M PRETTY SURE THERE'S NO SCIENTIFIC RESEARCH ON THAT!!! BUT WHILE READING THE EXCERPT OUR PROFESSOR GAVE US (BIRTH ORDER AND SIBLING COMPETTION) I FOUND OUT THERE IS SCIENTIFIC RESEARCH ABOUT US!!! OUR SCIENTIFIC NAME IS SINGLETONS, WE EXPERIENCE CHILDHOOD WITH NO SIBLING COMPETITION AND NO PARENTAL DISCRIMINATION. THERE IS A QUOTE IN THE READING THAT STATES THAT WERE ARE "...CONSCIENTIOUS AND PARETNAL-IDENTIFIED, AS WELL AS... EXHIBITING ABOVE-AVERAGE LEVELS IN ACHIEVEMENTS" (DUNBAR, 304). I AGREE WITH THIS BECAUSE I'VE ALWAYS DONE GOOD IN SCHOOL AND I'VE BEEN ABOVE-AVERAGE IN CERTAIN SUBJECTS. BUT I ALSO KNOW ONLY CHILDREN THAT DO NOT FIT THIS DESCRIPTION. SO NOW I ASK MYSELF "ARE THESE BIRTH ORDER RESEARCH PAPERS REALLY AS ACCURATE AS MY PROFESSOR SAYS?"

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SPANISH GUYS AND BLACK GUYS

I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO PISS OFF A LOT OF SPANISH GUYS AND I JUST WANT TO APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE. I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO EXPRESS HOW EXCITING AND UNIQUE BLACK MEN ARE. A LOT OF SPANISH MEN ARE SEXIESTS AND IMMATURE. THEY ARE ALWAYS FIGHITNG AND COMPLAINING ABOUT WOMEN. BUT BLACK MEN ARE STRONG IN CHARACTER YET LAID'BACK AND NOT SO ARGUMENTIVE. SPANISH MEN CAN BE VERY UNATTENTIVE AND SELFISH. BLACK MEN ARE THE OPPOSITE. THEY'RE ARE ALWAYS THEIR TO HOLD YOU DOWN. THEY'RE RESPONSIBLE AND CAN BE SENSITIVE WHEN IT'S APPROPRIATE. SPANISH GUYS DON'T ALWAYS KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. BLACK MEN ARE ALSO VERY GENEROUS AND CHARMING. MOST SPANISH MEN ONLY DO THAT WHEN THEY WANT SOMETHING IN RETURN. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS A LITTLE HARSH BUT I'M JUST BEING HONEST AND SHARING MY EXPERIENCES. THERE IS MORE TO COME. STAND BY....

INTERRACIAL RELATIONS

I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE A LITTLE CONTROVERSIAL BUT I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT. FOR THE LAST 3 YEARS OF MY LIFE I'VE BEEN GOING OUT WITH A SWEET AND VERY SEXY BLACK MAN. AT FIRST EVERYONE THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY. MY FAMILY IS VERY AGAINST DATING PEOPLE FROM OTHER NATIONALIITES. BUT I HAVE AlWAYS BEEN THE REBELLIOUS ONE. I WAS ALWAYS BORED IN MY PAST RELATIONSHIPS. THE MEN I WAS INVOLVED WITH DIDN'T SHARE THE SENSE OF ADVENTURE, THE CHARISMA OR THE CHARM TO KEEP ME SATISIFIED. UNFORTUNATELY, THOSE MEN WERE HISPANIC. BUT GETTING INVOLVED WITH MY CURRENT MATE HAS BEEN A DAILY (VERY INTERESTING) ADVENTURE. HE IS SO CREATIVE AND SINCERE. OUR RELATIONSHIP IS RIDE OR DIE. WE WOULD DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING FOR EACH OTHER. I DON'T THINK I COULD HAVE EVER HAD A RELATIONSHIP LIKE THIS WITH SOMEONE FROM MY NATIONALITY. I WOULD NEVER HAVE HAD SO MANY INTERESTING EXPERIENCES AND LEARNED SO MANY STIMULATING THINGS. BUT THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING. I'LL HAVE MORE TO SHARE NEXT TIME. JUST WANTED TO GIVE MY BORICUA GIRLS AND MY OTHER LATIN SISTERS SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT....

THINGS WERE SO DIFFERENT WHEN I WAS YOUNGER...

I HAD THE FUNNIEST CONVERSATION WITH MY 10 YEAR OLD COUSIN YESTERDAY! HER NAME IS MARIA AND SHE LIVES IN MISSOURI. SHE CALLS ME YESTERDAY TO INFORM ME WITH MUCH PRIDE THAT SHE BEAT THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUT OF 3 GIRLS IN HER CLASS. I ASKED HER WHY SHE DID IT AND SHE TOLD IT ME IT WAS OVER A BOY. APPARETNTLY ONE OF THE LITTLE GIRLS BOYFRIENDS BROKE UP WITH HER TO ASK OUT MY COUSIN MARIA. SO THE THREE LITTLE GIRLS CAME UP TO MARIA AND STARTED BOTHERING HER. MARIA AS HIGH STRUNG AS SHE IS COULDN'T TAKE IT AND SMACKED ONE OF THE GIRLS. THIS MADE THE OTHER TWO GIRLS JUMPED IN, SO MARIA CHOKED ONE OF THE OTHER GIRLS AND THE OTHER ONE RAN. I WAS LISTENING TO HER SHOCKED. WHEN I WAS 10, BOYS HAD COOTIES AND LITTLE GIRLS ARGUED ABOUT DOLLS. BUT NOW A ELEMENTARY SCHOOL FIGHT SOUNDS LIKE A SOAP OPERA. THIS IS JUST TOO FUNNY BUT AT THE SAME TIME SLIGHTLY ALARMING...